Sartha tells me that God is trying to tell me something.
At the time when I decided that I want to convert and marry Him,
At the time when I thought We could be even closer,

This happened. Coincidental or fated.
Sartha said God pulled the brakes for me before I make all the wrong decisions and ended up worse than now.
Because God knows, any worse than now, I will not be able to take it.