13th Jan 2011

Its 13th Jan 2011.
Supposedly, 5th year anniversary.

The 5th year anniversary that did not come.

Sartha said she is going to combine my cushions and hers and throw one at Me for every passing hour to make sure I am sound.
I am going to make Myself very busy tomorrow. Or rather, I am rather busy.
CCAs, the tables, filing of agreements will make Me busy the whole day.

Will God give Me another anniversary to celebrate?
Is it really true that "if it's meant to be , it's meant to be".
"You can't find love. Love will find you."

True. I can't possibly find love.
Because I don't know what's love anymore.
Let alone find it.

Can I believe that love will once again find Me one day.
At least believing, there is hope.

Hope.
It's a term that pathetic people use to console themselves.