I am terribly sorry for the absence. But I did not forget what was bestowed to Me.
I am living every moment of it full of gratitude and gratefulness.

I have never been this grateful.
If only forever exists.
Or at least, let the time stop at this moment.

Is happiness that seems so unreal still called happiness?

I know who is the "Stay Tuned" person.
Someone who likes to drink coke.

What is one to do when you are told that what you want doesn't belong to you but you just couldn't stop yourself from getting near to it.

What are the deficiencies in Me that makes Him fall out of love with Me.

I need a cushion.
To cushion Me so that when I unknowingly fall, it will not hurt badly.

"Stay Tuned"

I recieved this today.
The envelope is empty except for the small slip of paper that says "Stay Tuned".

Questions:
1. Who sent this?
2. Why sent this?

Illusion vs Reality

I am nervous.
My heart race a little.

I kinda know why.

If my own boyfriend of 4 years plus who has seen the worse and best of Me could fall out of love with Me and doesn't want me, how could anyone who doesn't know Me well enough would fall for Me.

So much done to my self-confidence.

Did God move Him out of My life so that He can pave the way for another person to come into my life.
Because God knows that if I was still with Him, I wouldn't be able to see anyone else except Him.

I saw one of His secondary friends in the train this morning. I forgot his name. But I remembered that his gf is the youngest and a cutie.
I didn't know if I can smile at him. I don't know if he will smile back as well. It doesn't matter. Or rather, I think he remembers Me.
But he is not the first of His friends that I saw.
I saw Bernard a couple of times before in train too. His girlfriend is Serene. The girl I like most among all gfs.

I wondered if they would tell Him they saw Me.
I don't know what they know or what they don't

Chinese New Year they would gather to gamble at Terrace place.

All of these doesn't matter to me anymore.