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2012-01-26T13:37:00.003+08:00

Predictions said Pigs will enjoy a good time this year.

But I am not feeling it at all even. Let alone say having it.

Coming back to work is so miserable.

2012-01-05T10:54:00.000+08:00

I am so drained and tired till I feel like crying.

2011-12-28T23:34:00.002+08:00

Ying Ying 叫我不要重倒负折...

但是,可以吗?

X'mas DIY 2011

2011-12-24T16:01:00.003+08:00

Had actually wanted to do a scrabble theme X'mas gift for him. However, as I was cutting out the board, He texted me telling me his girl has done for him block words assemble X'mas thing for him. Obviously, my scrabble idea has to drop. My scissors, my board just dropped onto the floor.

Now what! Just only a few days to X'mas, what can I possibly come up with. I know for sure this time, I don't want just a scrapbook idea again. I wanted to come up with something different.

Who can I turn to? Aunite Martha then! :) I browsed through her website full of crafts ideas and chanced upon how to make a card popping X'mas tree! Cool~.
But I don't have any materials for the new idea.

I was dead shack and my legs were dead tired this whole week. No choice, on a half day expedition, I went to Ikea and Papermarket at Clementi to scout for the materials. Dashed back home and try to come up with something. Nothing fantastic. I was quite disappointed also cause it didn't quite turned out what I wanted. First time try spraying. Beautiful and easy! But have to control the spray to have a nice spray.

My room was in a huge mess and got scolding and nagging from my mum from creating the "snow scene" in my room!
The end product.
Defintely can be better.

2011-12-13T23:43:00.003+08:00

There was a position posted through our portal yesterday for EO position for this XXX section. Sartha asked me to apply for it. Before I could decide if I would want to apply for it or confirm my suspicious who this post might be for, Peck Sia whispered to me asking me to check out the portal.
Apparently she wanted to tell me this "position opportunity" and asked me to try that out.

But I told her, if I am not wrong, this post should be for this YYY girl who holds the same post as I am.

Then, it occured to her that it might just be so. However, she said she will confirm our suspicious with this ZZZ boss for this section.

True enough, the EO position was in fact, created for this YYY girl after she has obtained her degree. Apparenlty, it was this ZZZ boss who fought for her.

Jus 2 weeks ago, I came to know that I was denied of my grade promotion this year with no reason given.

It was bad enough that 18 exces were given promotion and was giving treat to all of us. As I was eating their catering, I wondered why can't they even give me just a non-exec grade promotion when they can give 18 execs.

What could be worse when this YYY girl is to be given promotion even before this VVV girl from WWW section was also promoted after obtaining her degree.

It was awful. Really awful for me going to work everyday. I have to admit, it feels really shitty. I didn't tell anyone this except Peck Sia. But I have to remind nonchalant infront everyone which doesn't make me feel any better either.

I don't think my performance is below expectations. They lament it out on the weak fighting spirit of this so and so. I can now totally understand how Joanna feels that time before she left.

Now, this time, I will allow myself to regret for giving up the offer from this Near West Org.

2011-12-13T19:10:00.000+08:00

I don't text him during the whole of a day doesn't mean that I don't miss him and doesn't think of him.

I think of him alot of the time.

In fact, I am thinking of him now.

But I just did not text him.

I just simply don't want to disturb him.

2011-12-05T00:32:00.001+08:00

These and electronic price tag, this is the new Sheng Siong.

Puzzle-ing

2011-12-05T00:27:00.003+08:00

One of our activities together.

2011-12-05T00:16:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I just don't know if I want to cry to laugh at Hwee.
Below was the conservation we had the other night. I had nearly wanted to throw my phone out of the window and Sartha was laughing non-stop when I told her this.

2011-12-02T13:50:00.001+08:00

Haven't been blogging for awhile.

Are you sure you want me to?

Because I have too many unpleasant things to talk about.

Breathing

2011-11-21T10:51:00.001+08:00

I love lying close to him.

Close enough for me to hear and smell his breathing.

2011-11-16T12:19:00.000+08:00

"If u mum dunwan to cook then u come over...
I cook...potatoe chips for u"

2011-11-14T00:29:00.001+08:00

2011-11-14T00:24:00.001+08:00

Awww...."best displays of the Northern Lights in 50 years".
I sooooooo wan to see!!!
I am sooooo going to go again! :)

2011-11-11T16:19:00.001+08:00

Read this from somewhere...

Be patient enough.
It will never be late or early but always just in time.

Happy Birhday Poh Lay

2011-11-11T13:02:00.004+08:00

11th Nov 2011.
Peck Sia was just telling me today is all "1".
Ya and I told her about my "story" behind this 11.11.11.

She goes "awwwww"....
And I told her "you all maybe...might just, could be attending my wedding today" and with that, the both of us burst out laughing.
I guess this is life.
We cry over things and looking back, we laugh over it.

Just a year ago, Poh Lay told me her birthday would be special next year (her birthday is 11th Nov) and she was so happy and looking forward to it.
That me then, was full of anguish about this day and had wondered how am I going to cope when this day comes.

Fret not. I believe it's a blessing. :)
And Yes, happy birthday Poh Lay. ;)

Smell

2011-11-08T10:44:00.001+08:00

I like to smell him.
That morning he said "you are smelling me again".
I want to register his smell in me so that one day if I get lost, I can find my way back to him with his smell.

2011-11-08T00:08:00.003+08:00

We were all invited to Debra's wedding however, none of us are attending. So, out of courtesy, we got to get a little something for her.

Peck Sia picked up a marriage certificate scroll for her. I was assigned to write the card. If you would have noticed, the "congratulations" was "liquided" in between. How very sincere of me isn't it that I couldn't even spell "congratulations" correctly.

2011-11-08T00:03:00.002+08:00

Jeremy brought us to Avalon last friday. His friend was spinning there and so we went in free. But the drinks aren't. One of these, Red Bull and Vodka costs $20! so awfully expensive. But the good thing is,I am not the one paying. :p

We were so underdressed. The clubbers there were so sophiscated and well dressed. We were in t-shirts, jeans and I am in only a plain dress. But Jeremy said the three of us are the "most real" there. Ha...Crap.

2011-11-07T23:58:00.002+08:00

Red Bull and Vodka Mandarin.

Longflat Moscato and Instant Pumpkin and Corn Porridge. Weird combination but both tastes good. Longflat, is sweeter than Anvers. Think it's because of its lower alcohol content. The best part is that it's cheaper than Anvers, less than $20. Uncle said we can try only those less than $20.

2011-11-03T00:40:00.002+08:00

Face Mask time!

Favourite Food

2011-11-03T00:21:00.002+08:00

Hwee said his favourite food is:

1. Satay
2. Egg

My favourite food is: (not in order of preference)

1. Chicken Wing (grilled and fried)
2. Xiao Long Bao
3. Grilled stingray

This list is not conclusive.

Xiao Hui's 30th

2011-11-03T00:06:00.004+08:00

Had a tiny little celebration for Xiao Hui's 30th birthday just now. We had dinner at our usual xiao long bao place and then hop to TCC for strawberry cake.

Seriously, I realised I cannot live without xiao long bao. Just the other day, Hwee was asking me what's my favourite food and I couldn't name any except chicken wing.

Made a little last minute scrap book thing for her. Though it looks abit like what I did for Hwee's birthday but her's is a lot nicer! My creative juices has run dry lah.

Christmas, would be a big project. It has to be something different from what I have did before. Scouting for ideas now. :)

2011-10-31T00:27:00.004+08:00

Told him last friday that I had sore throat and he just plainly dismissed it saying it's because I didn't drink.

But amazingly, after drinking a little, my sore throat was gone the next day. But I am not attributing it to the works of alcohol. It's purely because I drown myself with a hell lot of water and the herbal tea he bought.

Was that the Giant over the weekend and got "conned" by the promoter aunite that this particular of wine from Portugal is nice and sweet. The promoter auntie seriously impressed me with her knowledge and the way how she pronunced "Moscato" with an accent. However, the wine turns out to be awful.

We haven't explored much yet, so far, this Moscato introduced by Jeremy is the sweetest.

As for beer, it's Kronenbourg 1664 .

One more thing I like about him is that he drinks with me.
He should drink less actually, he doesn't have a good heart.
And trust me, saturday nights are best spent drinking, snacking and movie-ing at home.

2011-10-31T00:21:00.002+08:00

I have a boyfriend who helps me to pluck my armpit hair.
All right, others might find it a bit weird.
But you cannot not admit that it's sweet.

2011-10-25T00:43:00.001+08:00

He claimed that he is an observant person. Yes, he is. Observant to others than his own girlfriend to be exact.

2011-10-17T23:08:00.001+08:00

So much and all, I am still learning how to love myself.

2011-10-17T22:53:00.003+08:00

This was lunch or rather dinner alone at city hall while waiting for him to finish work last Saturday. In fact, I had roamed around orchard, city hall on my own almost the whole day waiting for him. Till 5 plus, it was decided that I had to eat something before I started wanting to vomit.

This china lady at this eatery waved to me and since there are a plenty of seats in there, I decided that fine, here should be since its dinner time and most places are filling with crowds.

While eating alone, it strike me that how sad it would be if I have to end up eating alone in the future.
Eat alone, shop alone.
But someone told me before that one has to learn to be alone. You wouldn't know if you will end up being alone.
There are a few single old ladies in the office and Sartha and I would visualize us being like them 20 years later. How screwed that can be isn't it.
There are times which I would prefer to shop alone because I believe shopping alone gets things done faster. But I have never like to eat alone. I think it's rather a sad thing to have to eat alone.

Through that day, anytime, I would prefer to have him with me. At least, when I saw Harris bookshop selling spiderman collection box, I can show him.

Sleeping alone

2011-10-17T14:54:00.001+08:00

It is nice to have someone sleeping beside you. Of course, not just anyone.

I hate sleeping alone. Especially ever since I got dumped last Oct. Since then, my mum slept with me for 2 months. Then she decided that her husband might dump her for sleeping with her daughter so she went back to sleep with her husband.

Though she did drop by to show her sympathy for awhile but after her husband came home 12am, she will go back to her husband. The trade, she will sleep with her door open and mine too. So technically speaking, I am not exactly sleeping alone.

Even when things got better, I still slept with my door open. I just don't like sleeping "alone" in the room. Weekends are still alright because I would be sleeping over his place.
Weekdays, the door would have to be open though I would close the door doing my stuff before bedtime. Bedtime, open the door and climb onto bed.

Then one night, I suddenly realised that both my brother's and parent's room door are closed.

So, it's obvious, I still sleep alone.

2011-10-06T10:29:00.001+08:00

Jeremy said he saw this on facebook.

"if you are in love with 2 persons, choose the second one.
Because if you had love the first person enough, you wouldn't have fall for the second one."

How true.

If you're not the one

2011-10-05T11:46:00.002+08:00

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I'll never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

2011-10-03T10:33:00.001+08:00

I drink like every weekend.
Because drinking takes my mind off things and makes me happy.

Sometimes, it's better not to be sober.

2011-09-29T12:22:00.001+08:00

Inevitable

2011-09-26T00:13:00.003+08:00

I had one of the weirdest dream when I took my afternoon nap earlier on which I prayed would never come true.

Migrating

2011-09-24T13:26:00.001+08:00

Sleep and Msn

2011-09-20T19:54:00.002+08:00

I was trying to finish my PowerPoint just Sunday night.
My brother was loitering around my room waiting for me to surrender my laptop to him.

He was a disturb. Making jokes for me to laugh and distracting me.
He made me laugh though but I would appreciate a bit of peace to finish my work.
I tried to shut him up and send him to bed.

However, it is because he don't have the laptop that's why he can't sleep.
Reason being, he sleep with his msn on with his girlfriend.
So no laptop= no msn= no sleep.

Seriously. I rolled my eyes.

Fax

2011-09-13T19:47:00.002+08:00

I was trying to locate the manual for the fax machine because the guys have problems trying to get it connected.
Peck Sia asked me to try cupboard 13 because there are some manual books and if it's there, it's there. If it's not there, it's no where to be found too.

So I went and came back telling her " inside got".
She responded " really ah!"
Then I said " ya...for the previous old fax machine"

Both of us burst out laughing.

2011-09-13T00:21:00.002+08:00

Officially shifted office to MBC at Pasir Panjang.
It's a long and troublesome journey to work from now till the Labardor Park station opens in October.
Even so, the journey didn't get any much shorter either.

From now onwards, my first alarm will go off at 5.25am. Zzzzzzzzz

2011-09-13T00:20:00.001+08:00

I had one of those very bad menses situation yesterday.
I could only be in bed and slept most of the day away.
And he sat on the floor with his laptop on the bed just beside me.

2011-09-05T23:57:00.004+08:00

I was so irriated with Mr Yeo at work today. He asked me for help regarding some printing options to be set in his PC. I couldn't quite figured it out because it didn't looked quite the same with mine.

To solve things fast, I asked him what he had wanted to print. He dished me with a "don't ask too much" response. I didn't had meant to probe but my reason for asking was because I can teach him how to print double sided if it's a email or document. In this way, we solve the immediate problem and later we can check with the helpdesk on how to configure the setting from the control panel.

This is not all. An hour later, he came to me with his thumb drive problem. His PC doesn't seem to recongise his thumbdrive. So I asked him to call Helpdesk. After a while, he came to me asking me to plug out my apple cable and plug in his thumbdrive and with that the helpdesk wants to speak to me. An important point to note here, I have 4 usb slots on my CPU. I told him that I don't have to plug out my cable. He claimed later would be messy. I nearly flop. But nevermind. Just let him be. I asked him what he want me to do and what's going on? AGAIN! he dished me with a "don't asked so much" I mean, You are asking me to do something now, at least you have to let me know what's going on isn't it? if not, I just blindly follow?

I dished him back with a even more impactful response.

He isn't a unreasonable old man but sometimes just drive me up the wall. In actual fact, he is sometimes a nice guy.
Like last wednesday, I chanced upon that there is a badminton shop in Jurong West area while searching for racket bags for Mr Facebook 101 and so I asked him if he knows anything about it since he live in that area. He said he doesn't but he can drive me there. I jumped at that idea but only to be informed that he didn't drive on that day.

Well, the next day. Soon after I reached office, He called telling me that he drive and asked me if I wanted to go look for the badminton shop that day. But alas, I still don't know if that shop actually still or even does exist so I turned down his offer.

He can be this nice but at the same time can really drives me up the way at times.

Coke

2011-09-05T23:52:00.003+08:00

He said I cannot get him anymore coke.

How could a girlfriend be forbidden from giving his boyfriend something which he likes.

$199 fan

2011-09-05T23:33:00.003+08:00

Bought a fan for him today. He had wanted to get a fan and we have been looking around for quite a while.

Today was a mad rush. Supposed to go over his place for dinner and on top of that I had to stayed back to wait for the movers to shift the loose furniture. This ended up pretty late. Yet, I had to rush to CWP to get the fan.

Gladly with KS help. Actually I had only wanted to get it myself. Although it did occur to me if I could manage it. Well, I thought if I could manage 30 cans of coke, what is a fan? But I was so dead wrong. If not KS had texted me in the afternoon informing me that Kopi Alley have hot lemon tea, I would have struggled like crazy. He was studying at the library so I just asked if he want to go with me to get the fan. True friend indeed, he agreed.

Kind soul, God not only sent me one, He sent me another. The taxi driver that I took from CWP to his place. He not only helped me to carry the fan all the way to the lift, he entertained me with his "cold" jokes along the way.

Well, the rest of the journey which is from the lift to his unit has to be done by me. Not exactly to his door step. Close to his door step, I dropped it and asked him to go get it himself instead. It was heavy and bulky!

He asked if I had felt pinch of heartache spending that $199 on a remote control operated fan. Yes, you didn't read it wrong. It's $199 for a fan. I can't help it when my boyfriend is high maintenance. Haha.

Why would I feel heartache when I am getting it for my boyfriend.

2011-09-03T21:51:00.002+08:00

"Cheating and Straying is a choice"

2011-09-03T08:44:00.002+08:00

Saw a book at Carrefour last night. It's those self-help books for woman about relationships.
It says finding a man, understanding your man and keeping your man.

I found a man, but I don't understand him and don't know how to keep him.

Would there be a book for man that says " finding the woman, understanding your woman and keeping your woman."

2011-09-02T00:15:00.002+08:00

I had wanted to do something recently to mark our time together. But because I didn't had any good idea and no time to get the remaining materials and all, this scrap thing was stalled till now. And I kinda want to drop this idea because this might be too kiddish for him though.
He is erm....too man in my own words, maybe, for these.
Anyways, like I always tell him "my bf basically don't give a shit". HAHA...

Packing

2011-09-02T00:12:00.002+08:00

This is what days of packing did to my legs and hands. Blue black (but I have no idea how I got it), cuts over my hands.

Packing. Not forgetting unpacking too.

2011-09-01T00:31:00.001+08:00

1st Sep.
The hell begins.

6th month

2011-08-24T00:08:00.002+08:00

Guess what?
We had our first argument on our 6th month mark.

That's if I remembered correctly that 20th is the date.

And I freaking don't like us to argue and be hostile with each other.

2011-08-23T23:55:00.002+08:00

After Yoga today, he came to fetch me and we went for dinner.
He asked if I had anything before Yoga. I told him I had a little meal which my mum cooked.

He asked why didn't I go back home to eat instead and waste money.

How much would a dinner for two cost at a coffeeshop.
What's more important is that I get to spend time with him. However, he thinks whatever I said is crap because I made him angry earlier and I am just trying to make up for my mistakes.
One of the push factor for Yoga during my lazy days is that I could see him if he fetches me.

2011-08-15T23:00:00.002+08:00

It's tiring to chase.
It's tiring to keep up.
and It's tiring to maintain too.

It's all making me very tired.

Breast Meat

2011-08-11T21:46:00.001+08:00

I have to start falling in love with chicken breast meat because he complained that I eat all the thigh meat and leave him with all the breast meat.

2011-08-09T23:10:00.006+08:00

05 Aug 2011
cancer

You be feeling a little angry and uptight today, and things may not be going the way you'd planned them to just now. Be on guard for time wasters who divert your attention from matters at hand by leading you to believe that their agendas are far more important. At the end of the day, meet your love ones and everything will be beautiful.

He sent me this the other day. He copied the reading from somewhere and edited the last statement. I thought this was kinda cute and had me smiling to myself.

Weekends

2011-08-09T22:46:00.004+08:00

What do I look forward to in the weekends? (Not accordingly to order of preference)

1. To waking up late. As late as possible.
2. To waking up with him beside me.
3. To fall asleep holding his hand.
4. To do nothing with him.
5. To hold his hand and shop around.
6. To watch TV with him.
7. To go around stuffing him and myself crazy with food.
8. To not having to work.
9. To kiss him.
10. To have saturday breakfast with my mum.

Tromso...**Part 2

2011-08-07T23:06:00.010+08:00

The place where we called Home during our Tromso stint, AMI Hotel.

Toilet and Bath is shared in AMI. However, we have a basin for basic washing up.

Shared bath and it was so clean whenever I step in at any time of the day for shower.

Xiao Hui and I shared the double bed while Ruby had the single.

The kitchen where Xiao Hui fed us well during the stay.
Dispenser that dispense coffee and hot chocolate 24/7

Common area which houses breakfast, computer and TV.

We didn't eat out at all when we were in Tromso. Breakfast was by the Hotel, with the same menu everyday. 3/4 boiled eggs, bread, biscuits, cereals, vegs, assorted hams, milk, juices.

Lunch and dinner are all home-cooked food. Xiao Hui brought some sacues, canned food and even cooked rice when we made our stopover in Emmeline's house in Milan. Fresh produce, we got it from the local supermarket. She tried to make use of what's available and try to whip up a delicious and home sick remedy for us. That's why, I love travelling with her. She will bring Singapore with her. We both can't live without chinese food and can't survive well with western food. Luckily, with Xiao Hui around makes homesick easier for me.
The same breakfast every morning by AMI.

When you cook, you can save a hefty amount on food which is a bomber in Tromso.
ABC soup just simply makes me miss my mum soooo much! Fried onion egg, upon my request! :)

Chicken wing, my all time favourite!!! Ruby doesn't eat chicken skin. Of course, Me, the skin eater, happily eat up all the skin for her. How can we waste food! :p

Baked Salmon. Whatever the "fresh from Norway". What's the fuss. We eat FRESH SALMON here in NORWAY.

How can I leave home away a bowl of Laksa instant noodles.

Sardine Sphagetti!

Squeezable Travel Tube

2011-08-07T22:59:00.004+08:00

He finds my Muji travel bottles too diffcult to pour out the fluids, so he bought these for me, the squeezable travel tubes. This is not cheap. It cost him 55ml for $13.90 and he got for me 2 of it.

2011-08-04T00:39:00.001+08:00

Tromso...**Part 1

2011-08-03T22:29:00.012+08:00

The scene outside our room window. Imagine waking up to snow! How bless was that.

The best trip I have ever had. Norway and Italy in March.
When I told people that I am visiting Norway and Italy, they are pretty puzzled as to why these 2 places cause they are quite far apart from each other. Usually people who choose Italy, France or Switzerland.

Emmeline is in Italy so Milan is a MUST. So is Rome. If you didn't visit Rome, you just simply can't tell anyone that you have visited Italy. Italy will be in the coming entry.

Norway is for Northern Lights. For that, we had to travelled all the way up to Tromso. But alas, it's a trip that I would encourage everyone to embark on at least once in a life time, the quest for Northern Lights. Please don't get intimidated by the word "Norway" and that would be = to Expensive. We did things the budget way. Reasonably budget and we had the greatest time.

A beautiful dog and the good looking owner at Tromso Airport. I LOVE TROMSO! :p

Winter Tromso simply took my breathe away and there wasn't any pinch of exaggeration at all.
Every corner I turned was a postcard scene.

This is the only time when camera has lost it's purpose because all I wanted is to capture the night view of Tromso in my mind more than anything else.
Don't I see this from the travel magazine.
This is classified as a highly hazedous path because we all each, slipped a couple of times here.

This day was snowing!

Right from the plane, when we were about to land Tromso airport, we caught a blurish glimpse of the Northern Lights! The snow scene from the plane had me feeling like a kid seeing snow for the first time. Yes. for the first time, I am witnessing and feeling and touching snow.It was just like the way how Enid Blyton stories are told. Beautiful is not even enough to describe it.

The best time for Northern Lights is from 9pm to 12am. It all depends on your luck. It's a period of waiting and waiting and waiting in the cold. The 1st night of our quest, we walked through snow, LOTsss of SNOW to the lake where we were told that over there has a fair chance of witnessing the lights as that was one of the darkest location. The point is, you need ti find a dark location with no lights to be able to have the lights much visible to you. The route was long and quiet. There was hardly anyone other than us in the midst of the snow field!
It was fun walking in the snow. Xiao Hui, I believe had a great time falling and slipping and I couldn't stop laughing. We didn't stayed long enough because it was just simply too freaking cold to be out. But the fortunate thing is, we managed to catch it on our way back to the hotel. On the streets! Ruby and I couldn't stop screaming.

In order to maximise our chances of witnessing the natural phenomena, we took a cruise out to the dark sea to booast our chances on the lights. But fate has it, we didn't had much of the luck that night if not, it would be terrific because out at sea was pitch dark. The best "lighting" for the lights.

On the bus trip to the harbour to board the cruise
Enid Blyton comes alive

3 course meal on board

We signed up for snow shoe trekking which gave us the chance to "run" freely in the snow. Every where we turned are mountains and mountains covered with snow.

Yes. The key word here is SNOW!

Dog Sledgging...too exp for us but we tried snow shoe trekking and we had much fun!

One of the fun things I did in the snow.

Travis

2011-08-02T18:08:00.003+08:00

When I have a dog, or rather, I would like to have a dog, a golden retriever.
It will be called Travis.
So I supposed it has to be a male dog.

Well, I don't mind having a male dog actually. Or rather, I would like to have a male dog.
But just it's that, if you know what I mean.

Breakfast Tea

2011-08-02T16:53:00.002+08:00

I usually don't finish my breakfast tea. So there will be leftovers.
I would pour the leftovers into the sink and throw the empty cup into the dustbin.

Today, this act was caught by the cleaner auntie. Upon seeing this. She uttered a "thank you" to me which had me quite taken aback.
By pouring away the remains of the fluids instead of throwing the cups with fluids makes her job of clearing the dustbin at ease.

Rubbish bags get torn and just imagine the messy scene.
Not to mention, some not only just throw the cups but THROW them into the dustbin causing some splash around.

It's just an insignaificant act to me but it means so much to the other.

However, if you think in another way, this should be a "must do" kind of act but because not everyone is doing it and thus, it wasn't taken for granted.

2011-08-02T00:21:00.001+08:00

When God wants to give you something, there is no way you could reject it.

When God wants to take something away from you, there is no way you can stop it from slipping away from you too.

Beauty Sleep

2011-08-02T00:17:00.002+08:00

Ying Ying said beauty sleep is from 11pm to 2am.
How am I to get beauty sleep when I sleep at 12plus, 1 am almost everynight.

So please excuse me if I look like shit everyday.

Captain American

2011-08-01T23:37:00.003+08:00

Just watched Captain American earlier.

Didn't bring my caradigan with me and the theatre was freaking cold and got me all shivering.
We got the couple seats so there is no divider in between. The holder for the drink is on both of our sides. The drink is on my side so it is my duty to hand him the drink during the movie.

I passed the drink to him and he took the drink over from me. Naturally, I should be the one holding the drink till he and I finished drinking since the drink was from my side.
He said he hold the drink as my hands are cold.
He leaned over to put the drink back the holder at my side.

Instant Noodles

2011-07-31T23:33:00.003+08:00

In this saturday's eposide of "Mei Le Jia you" , Xuan Xuan was eating her instant noodles when the boyfriend that she snatched from Mei Le came around with takeways for her. Boyfriend saw her eating instant noodles and nagged at her that she should listen to him and quit eating instant noodles. Xuan Xuan rationaled that she has to remember the taste of instant noodles if not when the day comes that she couldn't get to eat beef noodles and all that would be rather hard for her to adjust back.

This is the reason why sometimes, I would sliently hope that he wouldn't be too nice to me. Because I know that, one day when all is gone, I would be left to painfully adjust myself back to where I was before.

"Say you love me"

2011-07-31T23:19:00.004+08:00

That night, he suddenly said "say you love me".

I was abit surprised to hear that.
We both, hasn't said the 3 words to each other verbally all these while though we did text it out to each other. Even when he does texted me, he will just text "love you".

What's the difference between "I love you" and "love you" ?
Well, to me, there might be a difference.

"I love you" is telling and admitting to the other person that "Yes, I am the one who love you"

whereas,

"love you" is making the other person doubt, "who love me?" because there is no identity infront.

I gladly said "I love you" and he said to me, "I love you too". That is if I do remember correctly there is a "I" in front. :p

New Skin

2011-07-31T23:17:00.001+08:00

One day, I am soooo going to sit down and find out how to change the skin of my blog.
This skin is not reflective of me after the last change.

Sweethearts

2011-07-22T00:49:00.000+08:00

From Ying Ying and KS

Gucci Card Case

2011-07-22T00:45:00.001+08:00

28th

2011-07-22T00:06:00.002+08:00

28th was a blessing from God.

Ikea chicken wing

2011-07-21T11:31:00.002+08:00

We went Ikea last night.
Had chicken wings.
He ate the drumlets and left the wing parts for me.

5th month

2011-07-21T11:13:00.004+08:00

We just crossed the 5th month just yesterday.
I didn't hold his hand yesterday.
He complained that I don't initiate to hold his hand.
Umpteen times, he claimed he has to purposely brushed my hand then I will hold his.
It is not that I don't want to hold his hand. I am just scare.
I love holding his hand.
I love it when he hold my hand while he is driving where safety wasn't compromised.

I will hold his hand the next time I see him.

2011-07-19T13:44:00.002+08:00

I don't like iPad and iPhone.
They steal my bf from me.

Adjustment Bureau

2011-07-17T01:37:00.002+08:00

Adjustment Bureau. I like this movie.
It gives me hope.

2011-07-16T09:24:00.000+08:00

Stressed and Scared.

2011-07-15T20:10:00.001+08:00

Today is a raining day.
It's romantic to hold your partner's hand and run in the rain isn't it.

2011-07-13T09:56:00.002+08:00

We were talking about dressing.
I told him the previous he doesn't like me wearing shorts. So I rarely wear it.
He asked so what if He doesn't like me wearing shorts. Would I not wear them too. (He was the one who pushes me to wearing more of shorts that it become a staple for me during weekends)

I replied saying I won't. I will reason back and wear them still.
He said I'm not being fair.

That is not true.
It's just because I don't want to lose myself again the second time.

黄金时段

2011-07-12T00:15:00.003+08:00

I love it most when we are both in bed, in the most relaxed mode, preparing to sleep and that I would make him talk to me.
He called this the "黄金时段" that which I like most.

One of the most simple yet beautiful things in life is to talk till you fall asleep with the one you love beside you.

2011-07-11T22:10:00.002+08:00

The cutie in the picture is Aayden, Teng Teng's son.
Had a gathering with the secondary girls last monday.
All right, to be honest, I was a bit reluctant to attend. I figured out that I probably have nothing much to contribute to the conservation. Indeed I was right.

80% of the conversation was surrounded by weddings, BTOs, venues for weddings, locations of flats, wedding dates, babies, motherhood and all. Everyone has something to say about their own situation except Carol and I.

Well, Carol has been with her boyfriend for 10 years. No joke, 10 years. To the point that neither She and her boyfriend wishes to get married. They are already an old couple in everyone's senses, just without that piece of signed paper. And that she said that she has seen cases of friends signing the M paper and soon after followed by the D paper. So heartwarming.

I have to admit, I did feel rather shitty that night. Even though I know I shouldn't be feeling that way. But I guess it's just natural to feel so. Sartha second to that too! She's being through that.

But this is not the first time for me to feel this way. Actually, about 2years ago, the last meet up with them, they all have some kind of a commitment going on already. Plans to get flat together, the girls were all given commitments. I was the only one who with no plans ahead and nothing as well. So, I think it's just part and parcel of my life. I suppose.

One silly joke to share here was there was one fine day when Ying Ying asked if I am going to buy a flat. Which I thought was the shoes "flats" instead of the HDB flat.

I was never one who would join in the rat race. Chasing after things that everyone is chasing after or be like my peers. My peers getting married and all doesn't really sent me into all frenzy though it does feels shitty. I believe in doing what's most comfortable for myself.
However the world would change, my beliefs should not change isn't it.

Sometimes, in my lowest point, I would ask myself if I was just not worth for the previous Him or maybe, even anyone to give me a commitment.

The previous Him, had actually entertained the thoughts of getting a flat with his mum for his so called investment purpose and said that if we do end up together, we could use that flat too. Making plans with the other and fitting the other to your plan is two different things.

Probably the previous Him and I had no plans because of our religion issues. I didn't wanted to convert. But the only way to marry the previous Him is to convert. Cohabiting was not an optional for the previous Him because He wanted a family unit and He doesn't wanted people to talk.

However, for me, I couldn't care that much so long I can be with the one I love.

The most ironic part was when I read that after our breakup, the previous He read about a BTO and did a calcualation of our salaries if we could fit the criteria. Isn't this way too late.

All the while the previous Him and I were together, countless people had cautioned me to think over this carefully. If I see no future with Him then end it soon before my youth and time is all wasted. True enough, my 5 years of youth and love was all wasted. Though it wasn't exactly because of that factor that we had to split but that does played a factor.

Commitment is tied to Responsibility.
If you are committed to your partner and your relationship, you have to be responsible for it.
Both have to be responsible for each other.
But alas, nowadays, Infidelity is a more commonly mentioned word than Commitment.

Sartha was telling me this secondary school mate of hers, a decent, goody and not good looking man who divorced his wife to be with another woman whom he got to know in his neighbourhood. And that the woman was even pregnant with his child. Sartha was telling me, if this sort of decent and not good looking man could be unfaithful, how about those other men out there?

Faithfulness... I am sorry, you are an outdated word.
Unfaithfulness is in now.

I am still trying to comprehend how could a person's love for another changed.
And I am still trying to figure out what and how I had done wrong in the previous relationship so that I would not make the same mistakes again.

All and all, what matters most is to be with the one you love.
Be with somebody who you love and who loves you too.
I had always thought it was a miracle to find somebody who you love and who loves you back too. How beautiful isn't it.

I know there are people out there who are just looking for a companion.
But I never had wanted to compromise love. I am not looking for a companion.
I am looking for my love.
Somebody who I can go to bed every night with and wake up with.
Somebody who is willing to eat Kway Chap and Ikea chicken wings with me anytime I want.
Somebody who is willing to take my PMS crap.
Somebody who is willing to hold my hand through all desirable and undesirable situations.
Somebody who is willing to make me laugh.
Somebody who is willing to grow old with me.
Somebody who is willing to hold the sky for me if it does falls on me one day.
Somebody who will love me forever.

The last criteria, I know it's diffcult to attain. Others will say almost impossible.
But, miracles do happen isn't it.

I am blessed now. To be able to find somebody I love. But, maybe for now. As I was told that things won't last, and that things will happen again. I would never ever want to go through what I went through 8 months ago. I don't want to believe it. But there is nothing that I could do. Except to pray and most importantly, love like as if there is no tomorrow.

Yes, there is another thing that I could do here and now, that is to silently tell everyone that I love Mr Facebook 101. Shhhhh...... Just silently...........

2011-07-11T20:01:00.002+08:00

I was sniffing ~ away in office earlier.

Sartha asked me " You sick?"

I replied saying "No. Not sick." After 3 seconds, I said "I just miss my bf."

Sartha rolled her eyes and said "That's making me sick!"

2011-07-08T13:16:00.002+08:00

Xiao Hui asked me...
"if one day he told you he found someone else better suited for him, would you be able to take it?"

2011-07-08T13:13:00.001+08:00

If I can only see just one person in a span of 5 years, I don't understand why others can't.

Sunrise Quest at Angkor Wat

2011-06-30T21:33:00.003+08:00

Our quest for the sunrise at Angkor Wat started off when my alarm went off at 4.15am.

We were considered lucky to be able to witness the sunrise considering now is the raining season in Siem Reap.

Sunrise ** Phase 1

Sunrise**Phase 2

Sunrise**Phase 3

Sunrise**Phase 4

Sunrise**Phase 5

In the name of Charity

2011-06-30T21:20:00.001+08:00

Charity. This term is sometimes being abused by people.

Went on this trip to the so call Floating Village. Where people live on boats.

They have their MaMa Shop, Police Station, Barber, School and even tanks that sell clean water.

On board the boat, the driver and the "guide" were very friendly. Especially so the "guide". Enthusiastically explaining to us about the lives of the people in this village. The highlight was to tell us how poor the people are, especially so the kids. Some of the kids lost their parents and are living in the small school. They depend on donations from people.

He asked us to buy rice, books or pencils for the kids. We buy the stuff from the people, they earned and gave to the community too. So it work both ways. Direct and Indirect.

I would be more than willingly to buy for the kids. But 75 US dollar a bag of 50kg rice. Isn't this a bit too much? But we did still paid for it. It's for the kids.

Well, that's not all.
Though we had already paid 15 US dollar each for our boat ticket, we still have to come up with another 20 US dollar for the driver and the "guide".

All in the name of Charity.

Sunset Quest at Angkor Wat

2011-06-30T13:40:00.006+08:00

The first and only attempt on the sunset of Angkor Wat. I had wanted to take on the hot air ballon but it was closed on that day. Thought since there's no hot air ballon for me in Australia this year so the next best thing is this. But looks like I am not getting any.

See how narrow and high each staircase is. We literally crawled up.

Concidential Geeks

2011-06-30T13:32:00.000+08:00

2011-06-30T00:30:00.001+08:00

28th June 2011

2011-06-24T22:21:00.001+08:00

It's not about seeking the best matched but seeking contentment.

2011-06-24T15:02:00.000+08:00

How to repair a self-confidence that has been damaged.

2011-06-23T23:44:00.000+08:00

Me and my new geek specs?

2011-06-23T23:36:00.002+08:00

After finishing her counter duties, Sartha came to me saying "Bee Keow, I am toooo bored so I drew this!"

Me, is a glum face and her, a pimpled face.

I asked her why is her tongue sticking out.
She said joker lah.
If not, Thani coming back over the weekend and so she is vomitting blood.

2011-06-23T10:10:00.002+08:00

I just told Sartha this:

" You know, I feel so cold today. (pulling my cardigan closer to my body).
My heart feels so cold today too.
Can someone please come warm my heart"

Upon hearing this, She rolled her eyes and started laughing.

2011-06-23T09:31:00.003+08:00

I want to hear only what I want to hear.

I want to see only what I want to see.

I want to feel only how I want to feel.

I want to love only who I want to love.

2011-06-22T14:18:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, the issue is not whether you believe it or not.
It's just that if what's said wasn't what you wished for, it is very much very demoralizing and dampening on one's spirits.

2011-06-22T10:14:00.000+08:00

Sigh of relief~ ....menses is here.

2011-06-21T22:18:00.000+08:00

One of the reasons why I love my section is because on either Sartha or my bad days, we would spend hours mocking at our pathetic state of life.
Apparently, if you ask me, that's the best remedy.
We don't laugh it over. We mock it over.

We would be laughing, cursing and swearing. Yes. We curse and swear.
The moment we stop laughing, there would be pin drop silence spreading across the room.
I believe the whole office know what's going on in both our lives.

They probably know her ex boyfriend still calls her.
They probably know I got dumped last year after Japan trip.
They probably know Thani went sailing now and is making a stop over this weekend in Singapore.
They probably knows Thani wants to marry Sartha.
They probably know my boyfriend's name is Sean.
They probably know Sartha is going through mid-thirties crisis.
They probably know I am going through late twenties crisis.

2011-06-21T14:42:00.000+08:00

Only time will tell.

2011-06-21T14:36:00.002+08:00

I am feeling exactly how I felt months ago.

The feeling of losing grasp of things.
The feeling of helplessness.
The feeling of frustration.

2011-06-21T11:36:00.000+08:00

A woman is at her most vulnerable when she is having her PMS.

2011-06-21T11:30:00.003+08:00

I know I am in deep shit when I miss being around him when I didn't get to see him yesterday.

2011-06-21T07:14:00.003+08:00

I don't deny she spotted on my weakest point. The most vital point. Or rather the most feared of all.
That was why my boat was rocked and sent me all jittery.

I know I did recovered. But the scar remains.

But I know somehow, my confidence will pick up.

Faith will be back in place where it belonged in me.
It just got lost. It will found it's way back to my heart.

And I know, things will fall in place eventually if they are meant to be.

Northern Lights

2011-06-20T23:57:00.004+08:00

Northern Lights. My Iphone 4 couldn't capture any of the breathtaking Northern Lights shots. This is courtesy of Ruby's camera.

This is definitely not the only Northern Lights quest for me. I want Mr Facebook 101 to see the Northern Lights too. See what I had seen in Norway, Tromso 2011. I think I told him we shall go on a Northern Lights quest in 3 years time.

3 years. Only God knows.